::The Return::
Sometimes one must leave the hum drum of every day Life/Reality to enjoy a similar concept of what one considers a Virtual World/Reality…for whatever the reason may be….in turn one must also leave that heavenly Virtual World which becomes home to journey back to what one knows as Life/Reality.
A few months ago, I lost someone very close to my heart and I felt so lost and alone.
It was a very difficult time and period in my life…
and I sincerely tried and failed over and over how on earth to explain and share with you all what was going on…
So I bottled it up like I do most of everything in my life in hopes that it would somehow ease the pain and dull the ache…
so for that my heart truly apologizes to you all
I fought as my heart tried unsuccessfully to ignore the fact that sometimes people come into your life no matter how long or why …some people stay through your whole lives journey and some just for a short while…I didn’t know why things happen…you ask why them…and deep down you know He only takes the best…but even that.. somehow doesn’t make the hurt and loss bearable…it soothes and calms for awhile…but not seeing them everyday or talking to them …having after dinner coffee…teaching you the fine art of cooking…the advice they gave…someone who was integral part of your life…is no longer tangibly visible or present…although their memory lives on…
I tried ignorance
I tried blocking it out
I tried running away from it all
Denial became my sole ally
Music became my healer
So I dived completely in denial and binged on music.
Some days get better, some days are still very hard to handle, but at the end of the night, when music fills your heart, you smile, you tell in a loud voice that you love them as if they were in the room and close your eyes believing that you’ll dream of them.
mi abue, te extrano, te quiero, y nunca te olvidare, fuiste, eras, y siempre seras mi mama
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❤
When you love someone no matter who they are…make sure you tell them out loud…every day…every chance you get
don’t live with regrets
and remember what they taught you
you wouldn’t be the best you if it wasn’t for what you learned, are learning, and what you now know
mwahz
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THE RETURN
Time To Get
MESSIE with ESSIE
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